My Very First Blog.

"What shall I write about?'

The only thought which was screaming in my mind when I learned that the new graded assignment of Communication is to write a blog and publish it on a website.

I was never taught this. Nobody ever taught me about writing a blog.

How shall I begin it?

What will I write about?

Would my thoughts be acceptable?

I, as a person, who is only aware of writing feelings, of writing about the phases faced in life. How would a person like me be able to write a blog for academia? While all these questions were popping in my head, i heard teacher say that the blog could be of any topic or anything we wish to write on.

From school to university I was never asked to write on a topic I wish. How on this good earth am I going to do that?

I decided that I will proofread the notes I have been writing in my phone since a year and I will publish those to the website but I still had a doubt in my head that would it be fine? If I send my teacher the blogs I have written on “How to overcome depression?” or “How to get over a friend?” or “A love story?” Ahh...

I’m going to sound so desperate that for the rest of the semester my teacher will definitely look at me thinking that “Oh she is the girl who wrote that crap as a blog.” What impression will it leave on her? My entire semester with her would be a nightmare and I will end up with the worst grade imaginable.

Oh Labeeqa... come on! Think of something new, something creative! The best of all. You aren't that dumb, are you?

It was Saturday and this was the only class I had. I went home thinking of a topic but unfortunately couldn’t find any. As I am a student who does every assignment at the eleventh hour so as usual I spent rest of my week taking other classes and dealing with all those mental breakdowns of university life.

Now finally when it’s Thursday and now it’s time to do my assignment which I have to submit on Friday.

I was intentionally ignoring this assignment because although I have worked as a freelancer, i had never written anything for my own university assignment and for the people I face every day.

I sat with my laptop made an account on Bloggers.com, thinking about the topic over and over again, with a fear of making grammatical mistakes.

I wanted my assignment to be the best of all and on the other hand I didn't want to begin writing it because of the fear of writing something useless.

“How to choose a solid topic for your first blog post?”

I googled this question but still didn’t come up with a satisfied answer.

“Labeeqa you cannot give up that easily, you never did that.”

I was giving up. Giving up of what? Of writing a blog?

I decided to message my friend and to ask her to write a blog on my behalf. But inner me wanted to do something myself.

Later, laying on a couch, thinking of a suitable topic, I realized that every person in the world has its own essence. For example, if there are 40 students in my class each of them may have a different taste, a slightly different mindset and a way of dealing with situations. The same way I have an interest in writing about real life problems, about my own feelings, about the things I or any person of my age would go through.

“Everyone has their own area of interest”.

This phrase roaming in my mind made me write a blog on “Silent Scream” The topic I came across a year ago. The topic on which I have been writing very often.

I finally published my blog thinking that not every person has the same degree of mindset. Donald Trump and Obama are two different people with entirely two different mindsets but both of them have large number of followers because both are acceptable by the society.

My thoughts might not be acceptable by the few people in class but there would be a large number of people who would accept and respect my thoughts. Never get degraded by the perceptions of others about you. We are not here to please everyone.

So take your laptop, write down your thoughts and publish them without a guilt. Have a great day ☺